Miss Honey wanted Master's phone number...She said She would be right back..What was she doing? She came back and said" I want you to come have lunch with me"..my heart pounded. She said she wanted me to bring a blanket,lotion, and a slavecraft. I want you to wear a colorful bra and a light colored shirt, She said. my brain was rushing..what will i wear? i felt myself craving to please Her..It had to be perfect.
She said do you have any question? i replied" No Ma'am".
I want You to do one other thing for me She replied. *gulp* Yes Ma'am? I want you to write down 5 things you want me to know about you. Do you go to lunch @ 12 Ma'am? Yes i do..When you get here my car is open, put the items in the car and text me and let me know you're here.

i grabbed a note pad and wrote down the 5 things i wanted Her to know.

1)Loyal
2) Love Hard
3) Scared to let go
4) Playful
5) Service Oriented

i grabbed the lotion, blanket and the book and laid them by the front door. i was soo nervous and was worried i would forget something.
It was almost 830a i ran upstairs threw my clothes off and ran some hot bath water..the water was soo warm as i crawled in . i shaved my legs carefully...thinking i had to be extra careful because there's a possiblity she'll run Her fingers down my leg.
i lathered the shampoo in my hair and ran my fingers through it so that it was extra clean ..Pouring hot water over my head to rinse all the shampoo out, i rushed to get out of the bath and dry off..
The whole time i'm thinking i need for this to be special..i texted Master, Master may i go shopping for a new bra..Yes, He replied.

Ok, i applied my make-up threw some clothes on and ran out the door. Off to the department store..Shall i wear pink or purple? She said colorful. Purple it is..a soft shade not too dark not too light. i run out the door to my next task.
i had to make the most perfect lunch, i scrolled the grocery store for the softest bread i could find..Freshly shaved ham and turkey, havarti cheese(my fav).. leaf lettuce and fresh strawberries. oh yea i remembered She loves dill pickles..so i find the baby dills,they'll be perfect for our little picnic.
i ran home, made homemade whip cream, slightly sweetened for the strawberries..washed and cut the tops off the berries. Pickles in little bowl,made the sandwiches with a little extra love. Gotta have the chocolate...i had made Dollie Madison bars last night...so i cute some bars out and wrapped them up..i found a basket and laid the blue and white dish towel in the bottom..it was perfect for our picnic.
All the food was prepared ,now i needed to get the bottled water out of the freezer..all was ready..

One last thing, i ironed my black linen shorts Master bought me,a thin white tee almost like a babydoll top, my new purple bra that you could slightly see through my tee.

All ready, i ran out the door so i wouldn't be late. i'm soo excited, i've got butterflies, i'm singing loud and can hardly wait to see Miss Honey..

i get to the area where She works, i see Her car parked by the Palm tree,i walk up to the car lay down my basket of goodies and text Her..i sat there thinking oh my what if i'm in the wrong car? Wouldn't that be funny? i looked around and i see Her sketch pad ok,this is the right car, i look up and i see two clothes pins that say MissHoney..yes yes this is the right car...my heart is pounding, i'm curious what She'll be wearing..will her cleavage be exposed..She has the most beautiful chest, her skin an olive tone, Her beautiful red hair...She just glows when She smiles.

She opens the door, Oh SHE'S HERE!! She climbs in the car and it was all good..i relaxed knowing She would take care of me. All the nerves were gone..Her little pinkie rubbed against my leg, the slight touch of her pinkie brought the butterflies back ...Oh how She brings up soo many yummy feelings inside me..i felt alive.

We rode to the park, a simple little park where you could sit and look at the snow on the mountain top, She took the basket from me, i laid out the blanket. She kicked off her flip flops and we sat down....What did You bring us? She said. i began to pull the goodies out..so proud of myself and what i made for Her.
She was pleased with her sandwich, you could feel her approval...She leaned over and she kissed me..i was unaware that we were sitting in a park and if anyone was around us.. Her kiss was like an angel kissing my lips,so soft and gentle.

We sat and talked and stared in each others eyes, and we spoke from our hearts..It was innocent it was precious. She is a gift, i truely believe She came to me for a reason. How can i be soo blessed to have the best Master in the entire world and now this beautiful woman?

We talked about what we want, how we feel about each other..We both agree we diffently have an amazing connection.

to be continued....

i'm sooooooo excited..i'm going to a taping of the Bonnie Hunt Show this afternoon. Master's out of town so i've tried to find things to do.
Oh my gosh, i'm soo thrilled!1

We have traveled from NC,Tennessee,Kentucky,Illinois,Missouri,Iowa,Nebraska,Colorado,Utah and tomorrow we finish up through arizona,Nevada and then home in California. Up to this point gone 2,560 miles.

I think Utah is the most beautiful state in the west with Colorado coming in second.That might sound strange but trust me when I say the mountains and canyons are amazing!! I scared Master to death when I walked out on a cliff this afternoon. I took some great pics and will post when I get a chance.

Ok, here we are in California looking for a house. Think we have one just waiting on everything to come back..On the freeway yesterday this is the view we had...the clouds and mountains are soo beautiful.It's like someone painted a picture...excluding all the cars and signs.

I’m soo very proud right now. My son’s been in boot camp now for 5 weeks. He called this afternoon about graduation. His father and I will be flying to Chicago Oct 23 for his graduation.

  Graduation is on Friday we’ll only get 2 hours to spend with him because he’ll fly directly to A-school after graduation.

 

  I keep seeing him when he was born only 19 years ago, 8lbs 12oz 21 inches he was such a beautiful baby.

 

  I keep hearing how the military breaks new recruits down so that they get in the right mindset. He’s had no outside influences. No TV, no books, no movies. He’s not even allowed to buy a magazine from the commissary. He makes 5 minutes calls to check in once in awhile. First time he’s ever been away from home and it seems he’s adjusting to his new life.

 

  

I can barely wait to see my boy, He’s made a lot of mistakes, but we’re starting a clean slate. I have so much respect for him for joining the military and getting away from all the negative influences in his life. He’s really come through and made me proud.

Happy Birthday Amanda Hugginkiss

 

May all your birthday wishes come true …

  

How late did you stay up last night and why?

11p..i was sick and been sleeping all day
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What was the first thing you thought when you got up?
why me?
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Who were you with saturday night?

my Master, and family
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Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now?

Absolutely
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When's the next time you'll see your best friends?
.
tonight
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What were you doing this morning at 7am?

sleeping with my Master
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What radio station do you listen to the most?

Kiss 95.1
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Where is your father?

In the Rudy Inlet
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What are you listening to?

Love In The Club/ Usher
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Who were the last 3 people to text you?

Master, my brother, my sis
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What's the fifth text in your inbox say?

you don't really want to know..
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What high school did/do/will you attend?

E.A.Laney High
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What were you doing at 11pm last night?

Watching tv with Master
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Who was the last person you talked to last night before bed?

Master
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Is there anything that you are craving right now?

sleep
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When did your last hug take place & who was it with?

this morning, Master
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Do people ever make stupid mistakes when spelling or saying your name?

yep...they spell it subbrina ugh
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Have you ever started a sentence with "No offense, but...?"

Not really
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Do you drink tea?

often
Have you ever been arrested?
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nope
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Have you ridden in someone else's car today?

nope
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Have you made a mistake this past week?

i'm sure i have
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Are you happy?

yes very
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Are you happy with your life right now?

very much so
In the past 72 hours have you been under the influence?

no
What was the last movie you saw?

You don't mess with the Zohan
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What do you need to be doing right now ?

Washing clothes..but i'm at work
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What's the connection between you and the last person you texted?

i'm in service to Him.
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Who do you hate?

i try not to hate.
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What did you wear to bed last night?

gown
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Has anyone got on your nerves lately?

probably
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Do you think you'll be married in 10 years?

hopefully
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What were you doing on Friday?

Riding to Virginia Beach, spending time with my family, fireworks,eating,laughing, loving on my niece and nephew.

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 Master told me on Thursday morning he felt watching tv was affecting our relationship. He said we spend way too much time watching it and he wanted us to go until Monday without watching tv. i thought i'd die . FOUR WHOLE DAYS!!!

 Every morning we wake up, i make coffee and we go out on the front porch and drink our coffee watch the birds and squirrels. We find ourselves sitting for hours talking and laughing and sometimes crying. It's brought many conversations up and it's been really good.

  i will admit i've been a brat about it on a couple of occasions. i tape my soap opera and love to watch it when i get home at night. We both love watching Hell's Kitchen and Top Chef we are talking through the entire show but i guess it's not the same as turning the tv off and completely focusing on each other.

  Yesterday we had been running errands,buying flowers, went to smoothie king ( our favorite past time )went to Costco and bought groceries  repotted the tomato plant etc..well Master sat on the front porch and started reading his book..i found myself being bored so i told myself i needed to focus on something positive so i went inside and started putting laundry away and cleaning our room. While cleaning i found my coloring books and crayons something i neglect. Work and everyday life just gets in the way or maybe i let it get in the way. *shrug*

 Master told me last night he likes to see me coloring, i have to admit i had fun laying in the floor spending quite time by myself. Later in the evening we were discussing our plans  because now we aren't entertaining ourself with tv. So i had laid chicken out for him to grill and He decided he was going to take a nice relaxing bath in the garden tub and read his book. We talked about having a nice scene after dinner and we wanted some new stencils so he told me i could go to A.C.Moore and look for some new ones . We are going to Vegas in a couple weeks and i need a nice black dress so Master told me to use his card and go shopping..soo off i go to Target and found the most perfect black wrap around dress. oh and i did find kanji stencils.

   So i get home and we made dinner ,cleaned up and set up for our scene.. Master cut two hearts in my thigh,and did needles and acupunture needles..i was flying soo high, it's the best feeling knowing Master only wants the best for me.

  i still miss my shows , i understand the point Master is making with me, and i need to be more openminded as a submissive. The past 3 days have been quite and i've had time to reflect on things. One thing tho, Master i really would like that nice rocking chair..* hint hint*

You can choose to get to know me or you can listen to gossip. i am who i am. i know in my heart that i am an honest person, i have morals and values and i choose to have friends with the same values. If you are a true friend to me then i will go miles for you. i love to laugh, i love to smile ,i love to give..i've found myself hiding from the people i love because of what ? i've stopped believing in myself i've lost confidence.WHY?  Well because there are people in this world that will suck the life out of you ,if you choose to listen to the crap they throw out then it's possible you will start to believe it.

  i've been through a lot in my life and i've gotten to a place where i don't want to waste another minute on drama or bs. i've stayed away and i've kept quiet for too long only because i felt ppl were judging me from hear say.

 The words of a very special friend changed my way of thinking.. last night i had a very valuable conversation with my dearest friend , who is one of the wisest people i know. He has been my friend through thick and thin..He knows i'm not perfect but He has always been there for me .He said i need to be true to myself ,and not base how i value myself from what i "think" others are thinking. i'm choosing to listen to this friend because this friend wants the best for me. He sees the best in me and He knows i'm a good person. He would never put me down ,or make me feel bad .

 Watch out people i'm going to live my life.You are welcome to share it with me. i'm going to hold my head up high and i'm going to shine when i'm in public because i believe in myself. i'm going to serve my Master because he is the only person that matters. You can put me down for being proud of who i serve. "sticks and stones may break my bones but your words won't hurt me anymore". 
 
  
my new motto:

love me or leave me alone!

Master worked soo hard today. He cleaned the garage for hours. He told me he wanted me to get the foot bath and wash His feet. So off i go i filled the bath with warm water and squirted some Johnson's baby bath to make it more relaxing.

   He sat in the wing back chair while i'm sitting on the floor washing His feet. Nothing puts me in a headspace faster than this type of service. There's something soo powerful sitting at His feet and looking up at Him. Most of the time it's giving Him a pediacure. i just realised tonight was the first time He's ever requested that i wash His feet. i'm sure He doesn't even know what this has done to me. 
   
    i hope tonight is the beginning of a new ritual..

  i want to run away , i'm hurting soo bad and i don't know what to do or say. Someone just take me out of my misery.

 Tomorrow morning i'm having plastic surgery. This is something i've been putting off for nearly 19 yrs. i have this knot on my forehead and i'm very insecure about it.

  i've been to a couple of family dr's over the years and both have said ahh don't worry about it you'd have more of a scar if you have it removed. Well since i've been in service to my Master he's noticed that it really bothers me. He told me to make an appt with a plastic surgeon . All these years i've been told it was a cyst, turns out its a tumor ( non cancerous). The worst part is the Dr is going through my hair line so i'll probably lose some hair. It's a little groosom so i won't go into the details but i won't be a unicorn anymore.

  Even tho i'm scared about this surgery tomorrow, i have a calm about it because i know my Master is going to be there with me. i'm soo blessed to have him in my life. i know when i wake up from my surgery i'll look at myself in a different way and it's all because of my Master. He is pulling away the layers of insecurity one by one..

   

Tonight my Master let me upgrade my lj account..now i'm actually excited.this lj thing might turn out to be fun.

   Good night all..